At the Workplace

(This happened last Friday. But I managed to access my Blogger account only today.
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I got the courage to ask my counterpart with regards how would she rate the way I work.
Before we had this talk, we had a slight drift today.
Indeed, if I thought I was slow. Well, I'm slower than I have thought.
I appreciate the candidness of Marj -my counterpart-.
She told me what I needed to know.
I felt bad to have upset her.
But I didn't regret talking to her today.
I have learned something new. I have learned more about Marj as a person. And I have learned something
about myself.
I'm still young for this corporate world. I still have lots of things to learn and must do it fast.
I have analyzed myself if I was being disappointed and frustrated on the way things have been going on for me,
may it be with work, the people, etc.
What can I do?
marj has been telling me that she really sees me as hardworking.
However, I think to myself, being a hard worker isn't enough if it doesn't give
results right?
The efforts just looks mediocre. And I'm being objective about this.
And on being subjective, I don't want to see myself just being a piece of shit in the company, earning
and not giving inputs and meet the standards of the people around me.

Does anyone who's also working or will work later on
think about that everytime you work for a certain company.
You're bringing in lots of things.
Not only your ideas and your willingness to work.
But you have a name. Aside from your given name,
you carry with you- your family name, your school and even your previous company.
It's like you're making yourself a BRAND.
How would people know you at work.

I'd love to work permanently with my current company.
With the conversation I have with Marj, I have appreciated her even more.
Not only as a co-worker but a mentor.
And I admit, I look like a stubborn little kid under her care.

On Monday, I'll be at work again. I'll be seeing Marj again.

Before she stepped down the bus, she told me: okay na tayo.
I hope we really are. Not that I see her that nagtatanim ng galit.
It's hard to work with someone who doesn't want to see you in the eye.
It's hard for both sides. And I don't want that to happen between me and Marj.
Presently, I'm thinking on what can I do so that we can be closer.
This event has been really constructive for me.