Under Surveillance

Yesterday, my company went out for an outing.
I felt sad at times.
Y'know the feeling you may have people around you yet you feel detached to them?
That's what I felt.
Actually, common comments on me was 'may sariling mundo' in the office.
I have this little intuition that there were some people talking about me behind my back.
Maybe because I am changing my persona. I'm the 'silent nagi' they knew before.
I'm now the type who answers them back and lets out an expression of 'leche' or 'p..' when pissed.
-sigh- I know, I know. I look rude. But I think it's just that I'm really showing of who I am.
This is not to say that ~"plastic" ako. I mean have you noticed in yourself that you get irritated easily by people whom
you know than those you don't?
Take this scene example when you're just new, people would forgive your tardiness in group outings.
"Okay lang yun" they would say.
Yet when you get closer to that group and the next time you're late, they'll tease you about it or even remarked,
"Ano ba yan? Bakit ka late?"
I think I'm in that stage.
-sigh- But I know in the future my tiny rude doings might get me in trouble. >.<
So, I'm going to revert some of the 'silent nagi' persona.

I'm under surveillance in our company lately.
Sukebe Mojacko (that's what people call him around the office) is eyeing on me that I'll be kicked out.
The news was leaked to me by Bebot.
The reason I'm his target? It's because of the Reception incident.
He's making a big deal out of it.
I swear I asked the untimely visitor very nicely who she is. I was afraid she was a robber.
I mean that's lunch time and our office is closed. How the hell did she get in.
Well, he claims the girl is insulted.
Insulted? Wtf! I told her I'm sorry.
Call me biased, biatch or something. But c'mon that girl isn't a manager or have reached the supervisory level.
I don't need to act as if I'll clean her shoes.
hn.. she's just a high school grad. Sorry is enough between the two of us! And have said it sincerely.
-shrugs-

Going back, what I mean that I'm under surveillance is that every move I do with my PC is monitored.
Thankfully, Sukebe Mojacko is not an IT personnel! He does it manually. Y'know acting like he needs something to an officemate
behind my back just so he can have a chance to peek what I'm doing with my PC.

Sure, I'm a regular employee now.
But I'm still hoping that a nice company that would help me attain both financial and personal contentment would pirate me to work for them.
Oh, IBM! Please take me.
I have this plan to save some money starting this payday on the 30th.
I must save now for if any sudden change of heart of the company and Sukebe's ruling I'll be out then I can leave with my head up in the air
and smile because I was ready beforehand.

PS: Kira, where are you?